Sweet Home, Chicago

I'm a the Art Institute now and things are going well. I'm finally getting back into my rhythm of making photographs.

School here is amazing. I only have one photography class and at first that made me pretty sad, but now I see why it's so important. All first year students share two classes, Research Studio and Core Studio. It really depends on the teacher of the class as to what medium you'll be working in but so far I've done video, sewing and performance. Currently I am working on a crochet sculpture.

I'll be updating regularly, now that I'm off facebook except for Sundays.

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It's one of those times when I feel like throwing life and work away. One of those times that I know will be over but I always forget when it's gone. I don't want to be here, why are things so hard? Didn't I want them this way? Yes, I did.

I want to be a dreamer, I want to have a good life. I want to be the girl in the pictures with smiles everywhere. But see where we're going, I want, I want, I want.

I don't need any of that. I don't need it. I am stronger than stupid comparisons. I feel like I am in a place where animals are just dressed like animals.

Yet here I am again, like every other time, writing my frustration, feeling not worth it. Here I am again, old enemy of my youth, I remember you and I hate feeling you.